I ran into a lot of issues with writing project Kidnapped also known as Bound Desires, but for the most part, it wasn't actually the writing itself that I had issues with, it was the editing and rewriting stage.
I have talked a lot on YouTube about how I hate editing my books, not because they don't need them, because I learned that lesson a long time ago, but because I just can't stay focused and find it so boring. I would much rather start a whole new book than do it, but something about editing Bound Desires just had me struggling more than normal.
My editing software did run out and I had decided not to renew the subscription just yet so I was only reading my manuscript to make it sound and flow better while also doing some light editing that I could do with the free version but I kept getting blocked.
Something most people don't talk about is the fact that even when you think you are in the clear from writer's block, you can get hit again with it with editing, and while I am pretty good at making sure I don't get writer's block when I am editing, that is a different story.
Reading and fixing the manuscript was hard because I have to put myself under a lens and over analyse every little aspect which made me feel like a failure if there was a lot to fix in a chapter. this obviously isn't always the case some chapters need more work than others for various reasons from tiredness to writing it or just being plain old distracted but it can hurt the heart to see your manuscript you felt was perfect when you finished has so many flaws.
Even though that was hard it wasn't the hardest bit in my opinion because even though I struggled once I got into a roll it was actually motivation in a way to see how much I could fix in a certain amount of time the hardest part was the actual editing which I was doing after rewriting the chapter, every line felt like mental torture and I don't know if that was because I had edited the first ten chapters then took a two to three-month break before going back and doing a chapter or two a morning after my coffee while I woke up or what it was but I felt like I wanted to rip out my hair.
Looking back on this project now has me feeling more proud of myself because while it took a lot longer to edit this book because of the challenges I faced it almost makes me feel more rewarded for getting it done, it can be difficult to keep going when you are struggling with a project or you feel any sort of negative emotion from it but it is so worth it to keep pushing forwards and try and get it finished, this doesn't have to be straight away this could mean taking a break and coming back with a fresh mind and eyes but without trying you will never know the greatness you can do and how hard you can work to make something you want to happen.
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